trembling

you know that feeling you get when you finally

say or do something that you have wanted to?

knowing if you didn't you would always regret not doing so?

it's liberating,

as well as frightening.

but as i get older, i continue to find reasons why it is important

that we endeavor to live our lives without allowing fear to hold us back.

however,

caution is something we should not abandon.

we must remember that the things we do & say cannot be "taken back".

once you write on a piece of paper,

you can try to erase & erase & erase,

but you will always be able to see a lingering, no matter how faint, mark.

at the same time,

i like to believe that if you are a good person,

with good intent & a loving heart,

the things you do & say in honesty

will not be damaging or severely regrettable.

sure, we all do or say things we sort of wish we didn't,

but in the end, our good hearts will see us through.

"i believe that my life's gonna see the love i give return to me."

(lyric by john mayer from the song wheel)

on another note,

mark twain once said,

"the best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up."

i try to live life accordingly.

& the more i do so, the more i realize,

i have a deep passion for making people happy.

for treating people, for surprising them with random bits of good.

i love it.

mark twain was right;

it makes me so happy.

ps:  i have decided to learn this song in french & to attempt to learn it on guitar or piano as well.

it is one of my most favorite songs.

(same song, just an awesome cover by louis)