Wednesday, July 20, 2011

take a straighter, stronger course

i love when old songs play on your itunes, unexpectedly.

today, "i've seen all good people" turned on mine.
as i listened to the lyrics of this song, i came to a new appreciation of it.
whether you take it to be a pro-feminist or an antiwar song,
[or what have you]
you can't deny some of the great lyrics in it.

"i've seen all good people turn their head each day."
"send instant karma to me, initial it with loving care."
"don't surround yourself with yourself."

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

under the belt

it's official!
i'm finally recertified in advanced first aid & cpr.
for some reason,
i never feel fully settled if 
i don't have this valid certification under my belt.

Friday, July 15, 2011

to the rescue

today i had my first real opportunity
at exercising my knowledge of
advanced first aid.

my friend got a chemical burn
during her white glove.
so she turned to me for help,
& boy does it
feel good
helping people.

by the way,
i don't typically listen to this kind of music,
but this is a feel good song.
& today i feel good.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

searchin' for the light

today is a good day.


it's been 2 years since we've seen each other.
"...searching for a better way to live..."
reminiscing,
memories,
loved ones,
cherished moments;
a flower in her hair,
natural laughter filling the air,
letters of affection & admiration.
the way we stepped into one another's life
& its rippling effects.
the changes in
mind
body
& soul.
a blessing in disguise.
that time
when we talked about cosmic indifference,
purpose,
& love.


you changed my life.
"...you must follow your heart..."
mentally,
physically,
& spiritually.
the possibilities of life,
its challenges,
its redemption,
its beauty:
going on 3 mile runs
or
licking up pumpkin ice cream,
discussing the desire to travel
or
"settling down" to raise future babies,
god's will.


the hope you provided.
"...we found each other in the dark..."
remembering
the letters we've written,
the smiles we've exchanged,
the tears of departure.
sharing the same colored eyes,
sitting at concerts,
henry david thoreau.
rejoice;
life is always changing,
its possibilities are endless.
&
one thing unchanging:
i'll always be here for you.
"...i can still hear your voice..."

gratitude,
like love
 is unconditional & eternal.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

a bird's wing on the window

"i love you, woman."
"just take it one day at a time."
"love you & your thoughts."
"is there a 'like' button on here? xoxo"
"you are not obligated to do anything you don't want to do."
"i hope you know i haven't forgotten you & i love you so much."
"everything in sync... body, mind & spirit.  real joy.  xox"
"these things are hard.  i wish i had the answers for you, but i dont."
"this life is pretty amazing."
"such a great post.  thank you."
"pray about it."
"awe, i love you!"
"proud of you!"

a text message.
a comment.
a phone call.
an email.
a letter.
it's beautiful what a few simple words can do for your heart.
despite the method of delivery they come in.
they say a picture can say one thousand words.
what a beautiful truth.
but in the end,
it's words we use to describe the picture.
i love words.
the ability to shape them,
mold them to whichever emotion you wish to convey.
a few words placed together & their ability to take your breath away,
or move you,
sooth you,
or excite you.
words
when placed to a melody,
the plucking of a guitar, stroking of piano keys,
sending a wave of possibility through your heart & mind.
words are beautiful.
pictures are beautiful.
songs are beautiful.
life is beautiful.


three little words

you've got mail
i'm in love with this movie!

kathleen:  what will ny152 say today, i wonder.  i turn on my computer.  i wait impatiently as it connects.  i go online, & my breath catches in my chest until i hear three little words: you've got mail.  i hear nothing.  not even a sound on the streets of new york, just the beating of my own heart.  i have mail.  from you.

kathleen:  the odd thing about this form of communication is that you're more likely to talk about nothing than something.  but i just want to say that all this nothing has meant more to me than so many somethings.

joe:  oh!  i was eloquent!

kathleen:  sometimes i wonder about my life.  i lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - & sometimes i wonder, do i do it because i like it, or because i haven't been brave?  so much of what i see reminds me of something i read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around?  i don't really want an answer. i just want to send this cosmic question out into the void.  so good night, dear void.

joe:  pride & prejudice.
kathleen:  do you mind?
joe:  i bet you read that book every year.  i bet you just love that mr. darcy & your sentimental heart just beats wildly at the thought that he & umm.. well, you know... whatever her name is... are truly, honestly going to end up together.
waiter:  can i get you something?
kathleen:  no, no!  he's not staying.
joe:  mochaccino.  decaf.  nonfat.
kathleen:  no, no.  you are not staying.
joe:  i'll just stay here until your friend gets here.  gee, is he late?
kathleen:  the heroin of pride & prejudice is elizabeth bennet.  she is one of the greatest & most complex characters ever written.  not that you would know.
joe:  as a matter of fact, i've read it.
kathleen:  oh, well, good for you.
joe:  i think you'd discover a lot of things if you really knew me.

frank:  what about you?  is there someone else?
kathleen:  no.  no, but... but there's the dream of someone else.

joe:  you know, sometimes i wonder...
kathleen:  what?
joe:  well... if i hadn't been fox books & you hadn't been the shop around the corner, & you & i had just, well... met...
kathleen:  i know.
joe:  yeah.  i would have asked for your number, & i wouldn't have been able to wait twenty-four hours before calling you & saying, "hey, how about... oh, how about some coffee or, you know, drinks or dinner or a movie... for as long as we both shall live?"
kathleen:  joe...
joe:  & you & i would have never been at war.  & the only thing we'd fight about would be which video to rent on a saturday night.
kathleen:  well, who fights about that?
joe:  well, some people.  not us.
kathleen:  we would never.
joe:  if only.
kathleen:  i gotta go...
joe:  well, let me ask you something.  how can you forgive this guy for standing you up & not forgive me for this tiny little thing of... of putting you out of business?  oh, how i wish you would.
kathleen:  i really have to go.
joe:  yeah, well... you don't wanna be late.

Monday, July 11, 2011

tenements fell from the skies

when the questions in my life pile up &
my heart & mind can't agree on the right answer,
this is the playlist i tend to listen to.





Saturday, July 9, 2011

try-a-tri

today was the day of the triathlon!
01:23:05
3.1 miles running
12 miles biking
600 yards swimming
rather than race for time, i decided to stick behind with my friend dani.
she & i got the exact same time,
& when we were swimming our final lap completely in sync,
it was worth it all.
being able to do this triathlon with her by my side the entire way was really fun.
it made me feel happier & more accomplished than a good time could have.
(me, dani, & friend julia)
(our numbers were written on our arms. mine was 203)

Friday, July 8, 2011

8 letters

today is annaleez day.
it is a great day.

this is a lovely video of my dear leah & i with the fabulous miss amy
from august of 2007.
(it was filmed on my phone, sorry for the low quality.)

so today we skyped.
(as usual)
& i taught her how to "qie zi"
(pronounced jie-tse)
qie zi means eggplant in chinese.
this is what they say for pictures in replace of the american "cheese".
the peace sign actually is a "v" for victory!
yeah!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

coloring books

while talking with my annaleez, we realized we both express ourselves
through the music we listen to.
i love it.
enjoy the tunes!



Tuesday, July 5, 2011

boat dipping

this weekend was certainly eventful.
i loved spending time with my family & new friends.
fireworks
america
boats
water
wakeboarding
mountain biking
running
canoeing
boat dipping
reading
jet skies
words with friends
birthdays
pizza
hard beds
sun burns
russian prayers
love & happiness