the human brain is an interesting thing.
with each moment of time, significant or not, a memory is created. this memory is noted by the emotions stirred within our hearts, glimpses of detail caught by our eyes, & thoughts passing through at that time. but time has a mysterious way of clouding the links to these memories. the more time that goes by; the foggier the link. the memory still exists, but we somehow find ourselves disconnected. while we are able to recall even the most minute of details in such memories, we no longer feel the emotions that were attached & often rediscovered when called upon at an earlier, less foggy, time. we can only remember feeling a certain way.
i think this is a tragically beautiful blessing.
it makes moments, like these, possible for reexamination at a later time.
it was a night like any other. the street was dimly lit by lamp posts & yellow stars, spotted along its borders. the neighbors had all gone to bed, & little children fast asleep needed quiet. summer was drawing near its end, & the first chapter of highschool was about to begin.
unaware & unprepared for what the future held in store for their relationship, an innocent girl in love was being walked home by a boy. crickets & laughter filled the air, as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder, protecting her from the superstitiously dark lamp post. blush flooded her face as he whispered words of vigilant endearment in her ear.
the surrounding trees blanketed their love in blissful secrecy as they arrived in her backyard, but it was the cold, emerald-colored grass that had a peculiar way of bringing the two closer. whether by causing their toes to find their way to each other in search of lingering summer heat, or by tickling her neck until he places his arm underneath it in a chivalrous attempt to provide her with comfort; the grass knew how to bring them together.
as he kissed her goodnight, she silently swore she could marry him someday.
she walked inside, having loved relentlessly & blissfully.
he walked away, his head hung heavy with protective fear.
this halloween was a blast!
i went to several parties
in several different costumes.
party #1: hallow-funka-ween
costume: pirate
party #2: random house party
costume: pirate (with 5 minutes notice, courtesy of l. walker's brother)
party #3: avenue house party
costume: the holidays
meg was valentine's day
laci was st. patrick's day
lindsay s. was mother's day
kalli was the 4th of july
sara was pioneer day
amber was halloween
i was thanksgiving
lindsay w. was christmas
& carson was just a scary guy
party #4: the institute party
costume: snow white & the 7 dwarfs
i was grumpy
megan was doc
lindsay s. was sneezy
sara was sleepy
kalli was dopey
laci was happy
emma was bashful
& lindsay w. was snow white!
we were seriously the hit costumes of this party.
at least 10 people asked to take picture of/with us.
& its romance & magic.
but it also made me realize that my dream of paris
could not be satiated by simply living in paris.
i must be one who works
to make my dreams my realities.
just as life in a different era could not be more satisfying
than life in the present.
(which is what the protagonist in this movie struggles with thinking.)
i love it.
a few of my favorite quotes from this movie include:
"that's what the present is.
it's a little unsatisfying because life is unsatisfying."
"the artist's job is not to succumb to despair
but to find an antidote for the emptiness of existence."
"no subject is terrible if the story is true,
if the prose is clean & honest,
& it affirms courage & grace under pressure."
"you'll never be a good writer if you fear dying. do you?"
"the test of a first-rate intelligence is
the ability to hold two opposed ideas in the mind
at the same time,
& still retain the ability to function.
one should, for example,
be able to see that things are hopeless
& yet be determined to make them otherwise."
"paris isn't for changing planes, it's for changing your outlook!
for throwing open the windows & letting in...
letting in la vie en rose."
"paris is for lovers.
maybe that's why i stayed only 35 minutes."
out of all these movies though,
i really loved sabrina & casablanca.
in sabrina, audrey hepburn describes to humphrey bogart
what he must do the first night he runs away to paris.
she says,
"this is what you do on your very first day in paris.
you get yourself, not a drizze, but some honest-to-goodness rain,
& you find yourself someone really nice
& drive her through the bois de boulogne in a taxi.
the rain's very important.
that's when paris smells its sweetest.
- it's the damp chestnut trees."
now i find myself so badly wanting to
run away to paris with a lover,
& doing just that.
or at least leaving for paris,
& falling in love with someone i can't have,
like in casablanca.
"we'll always have paris."
(& oh how'd i'd just go weak at the knees if a boy ever said to me,
"here's lookin' at you, kid."
the way humphrey bogart does.)
there's something magical about paris & humphrey bogart.