fire & rain

there is no kind of pain,

like the pain of suffering love's absence,

in a cherished friendship.

temporary or not.

to feel unwanted,

or held at arms length,

by a person you know

& understand

like the back of your own hand

is inexplicable.

knowing that you made a mistake,

the sting of regret

intermingled with

your hurt pride

"am i not worth forgiving?"

"is the friendship not worth it?"

if i could just make you understand...

i'm trying...

free agency is a difficult opponent.

this is not my decision to be made.

i can only pray.