not all those who wander are lost

we watched this during fhe yesterday.

i was immediately touched by it;

tears were rolling down my cheeks, as i know

with every fiber in my being

that i know the calm feeling russell m. nelson

is talking about.

a couple weeks ago,

i had a slightly similar near-death experience.

i was riding my family's vespa home from the sportsmall.

it was dark out,

& difficult to see on the dimly lit streets.

as i was riding down the far right lane,

i noticed a car ahead,

on a street perpendicular to mine,

on my right side.

this car attempted to execute a right hand turn,

as i was riding in front of them.

at a speed of 45mph,

i had to quickly & severely swerve

 in order to not be hit & scattered across the road.

i continued to drive home in a state of awe.

i thought i should be mad at the person driving that car,

who didn't see me,

& nearly killed me,

but i wasn't.

not at all.

in fact,

i actually felt sorry for them.

i couldn't imagine how awful they must have felt

after seeing me swerve past their front bumper.

i felt calm as i drove home.

more calm than i had felt in a long time.

my heart wasn't racing,

my thoughts weren't chasing after regrets.

for one of the first times in my life,

i had this thought that,

"if i had just died, tonight, i would be ok.

my life will have been a simple & humble triumph."

i have repented of my past sins.

i have lived in honest & earnest attempt to be near

my father in heaven.

i am filled with his love & peace.

i was calm.

i am calm,
for i know that

everything will be ok.