rods vs cones

midnight draws weary eyes

& stars pull on tender heart strings.

the moon sings a song seducing mind & soul.

dawn rolls over awakening the restless body,

held beside the other body,

who slumbers softly, sweetly unaware.

sunlight draws forehead kisses,

her body sees his body's piercing blue eyes.

his body sees her body's fluttering black lashes.

morning breaths flood blank, mental canvases,

illuminating peaceful reflections on every window.

sparrows sing simple songs

reminding pain to stay where it belongs;

in the closed arms of old journals.

noon comforts the body with warmth.

her body sees clouds shading the blue sky with relief.

his body sees white clouds shaping the sun in hope.

affirmation grows in the discerning petals & grass,

the beauty they lie in abounds.

crows fail to call her body's fear forward,

love may not come here anymore

demands a stifled haunted past.

evening savors the myriad of new memories made

& rolling into his body's arms weakens the darkness' grasp.

his body sees her body's quiet eyes.

i love you.

her body sees his body's sincere heart.

i love you, more.

...

as i lay here, awake, at 2:46am

my body & mind are filled to the brim with brewing thoughts & emotions.

excitement. exhaustion. disappointment. weariness. love. hope. determination.

i want to share a quote i heard in institute several weeks ago

that has been swimming around in my brain since.

elder maxwell said,

"the same God that placed that star in a precise orbit millennia before it appeared over bethlehem in celebration of the birth of the Babe has given at least equal attention to placement of each of us in precise human orbits so that we may, if we will, illuminate the landscape of our individual lives, so that our light may not only lead others but warm them as well."

though i struggle with the fantasies of "fate", i do believe this quote holds fast to wisdom;

some people are divinely placed in our lives.

i am grateful to many people & in loving debt to many more.

one of those people is my dear friend, leah.

as i watch my best friend go through beautiful phases of love in her life,

one can only help but stand amazed, gazing at the way her life has changed for the good.

i don't know how to explain it,

but the only person i can credit my amazement to is the savior, jesus christ.

the love & forgiveness he has for us all is bountiful & beautiful.

whether our fears be big or small, new or old,

he calms our hearts, steadies our minds,

grants peace into our lives.

he will always love us.