step, step on a big jet plane

tonight while i was running, i wrote this poem in my head,

while listening to his song on repeat:

(then i came home & made this video & wrote down my poem).

running to mom

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

running.

running towards something.

step, step.

  & away from everything.

step, step.

running.

step, step.

step, step.

wings out-stretched,

step, step.

suddenly you remember.

step, step.

you're almost away.

  & as if by mistake,

you glance back;

one last take.

step.

you see her tears.

you know her fears.

but on your heels you turn,

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

running.

running towards something,

& away from everything.

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

back again,

sitting in your seat.

“i'm almost gone.”

you whisper.

step, step.

step, step.

why did you whisper?

step, step.

step, step.

running.

breathe in,

breathe out.

breathe in,

breathe out.

  & siiiiiigh.

step, step.

look how you're soaring.

look how you fly.

step, step.

look at the sky.

step, step.

you see it so bright,

turn purple,

then pink,

then orange,

& red.

step, step.

step, step.

suddenly you remember.

step, step.

you're up, up and away.

  & as if by mistake,

you glanced back;

one last take.

step.

you saw her tears.

you knew her fears.

but on your heels you turned,

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

running.

step, step.

running towards something.

step, step.

& away from everything.

step, step.

running.

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

you wake again.

  & see the sky.

now, it's night.

step, step.

you siiiigh.

step, step.

you see the clouds,

black and blue.

step, step.

there's nothing there,

not even the moon.

step, step.

step, step.

it's only you.

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

suddenly you remember.

step, step.

you've gone, you're away.

step, step.

& not quite by mistake,

you try to glance back;

one last take.

step.

you saw her tears.

you knew her fears.

but on your heels you turned,

running.

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

running.

step, step.

running away from everything.

step, step.

& off towards something.

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

you come to a stop,

  & you step

off the plane.

step, step.

wings out-stretched,

you look for a way.

step, step.

suspicious strangers smile,

step, step.

step, step.

you think,

“am i here?

am i free, at least for a while?”

step, step.

you feel lost.

step, step.

step, step.

suddenly you remember.

step, step.

you've gone far away.

step, step.

  & this time,

with no mistake,

you try to glance back;

one last take.

step.

you miss her tears.

you feel her fears.

but on your heels you turned,

step, step.

step, step.

running.

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

"turn around,"

you whisper.

step, step.

'cause now you've found,

that what you're running from

is where you wish you

could run to.

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

running.

step, step.

step, step.

step, step.

away from everything,

& off towards something.

step, step.

that one something

that means everything.

step, step. 

step, step.

running.

step, step.